I’ve been meaning to publish this for a while… yet it sits in my drafts  and I just keep adding to it.

9.5 WEEKS PREGNANT
nausea hits around 4:30pm
very tired, but will wake up with back pain occasionally and be unable to fall back asleep despite tired. Often up for 2 hours at night, though I’m dozing for most of it but not sleeping.
Boobs feeling very full and heavy.
Gained two pounds by 9.5 weeks pregnant.

Cravings:
macaroni and cheese from Ikea
pork buns (once)  
thai food… and pad thai

10 WEEKS 4 DAYS PREGNANT
Cravings can be intense
Yesterday all I wanted was cheese buns
Since about 7.5 weeks aversion to all poultry. Now I don’t want any meat. Ham is okay, but that’s it.

I find this time so challenging. So many body changes and you have to keep everything to yourself.
My skin is like grease ball. Pimples hear increased a lot. Yuk. I have to wash hair every second  day, it’s gross. Before pregnancy I could go almost three days before washing.

I have the nausea where it feels better to eat carbs. Yuk.
I notice my belly now. Everyone else doesn’t, well hubby did. Well my uterus is the size of grapefruit now, last week I had gained 2 lbs in total… We will see tomorrow.
Most nauseous time is around 4/5pm. I rarely want to eat dinner with family, but later seems okay sometimes.

Way more mucus, nose has blood in it most days.
I seem to have insomnia too. Especially around 4am, for about 2 hours around that time.

All these things I had forgotten about since last pregnancies (ok except nausea and fatigue!). Some days I don’t exercise at all 😦 I find that are because I’m not eating the foods that I normally do, healthy with lots of leafy greens.

Leaving for trip home tomorrow with just Ella. I am planning all the food spots I want to hit… Blue fox: half order of classic eggs Benny with side salad with mango vinaigrette. Rebar: their salad with miso vinaigrette. Vanilla bakery: their green salad with thir lemon vinaigrette dressing. Baan Thai: spring rolls.

14.3 WEEKS PREGNANT

I think I already feel the baby move and have for a week or so. Though I know they say this is too early.
I was in class today listening to loud movies in my general language arts history of the music score class, perhaps that’s why I think I felt baby move.
Also I’m wearing regular pants, but below the belly I now have. So maybe they are tight around my uterus and baby doesn’t like it.

My belly has popped so much sooner this pregnancy. Leaves me feeling scared of how big I will be when I get to be 35 weeks pregnant! I know this is my third baby. But I’m only 14.5 weeks and I already have a belly and don’t fit comfortably into my regular pants… sob.
Note here that I have body issues, so I find this much harder to deal with than the average person I think. I emptied my closet over the past weekend of all my regular clothes and put them away. I can’t have them staring back at me… omg what happens if I never fit into you again?
My weight has gone up and down over the years, and I actually saved it the last time it was up. After my daughter Ella, I was only 5 lbs over my regular weight after delivery. Because I was sick in pregnancy, especially the last trimester and found it difficult to eat. BUT… I got PPD and GAINED weight post partum. Like 10-15lbs, which I kept on until she was about 13 months old and finally started to lose it. Yes I’m terrified that will happen again. i actually saved those clothes, so I will have something to wear post… well maybe… they might all be out of style. It was 4 years ago. lol. I put all those clothes my closet over the weekend.
Because i had bad post partum with my daughter, and we already have a son,despite always wanting 3 children, I got rid of all my baby stuff and maternity clothes. So I have nothing to wear really. And I had nice maternity clothes. Oh well… again… not sure if I would wear them now. Most of them were office wear while I was working for the government and my life has changed a lot and so has my wardrobe.
I just bought two pairs of pants from the gap, one pair of jeans and one pair of leggings and anxiously awaiting their arrival in the mail. I am wearing regular leggings, but below my belly, which makes it look even larger not rained in. I’m at the awkward stage where it just looks like I’ve eaten too many donuts (a pregnant friend of mine said this ages ago).
I wrote a blog post about this when I was 16 weeks pregnant with my daughter. I look back on that photo and think I was crazy and didn’t have a belly at all. So interesting how our reception changes.
Anyone have any suggestions for second hand maternity wear? I don’t want to spend a ton, as we don’t ‘plan’ on having any more after this.

Now I have more days where I can eat the salad I want. Though nights I still often feel sick to my stomach and have to sit up in bed a bit to fall asleep. Oh it begins.
I think I had like 5 pillows in my third trimester and though my husband still slept with me he was annoyed at the barricade I had to be comfortable. I actually didn’t get rid of many of them post… I still find 2 to 3 pillows comfortable. I love to cuddle a pillow in addition to hubby cuddling me 🙂

Lately I’m craving glasses of cold milk. Also (not at the same time) sour patch kids or skittles.

We told the kids just recently that we were expecting another child in our family. My eldest, who’s a boy and 5.5 years started to cry. We asked why and he thought this would mean he doesn’t get to share a bed with his sister anymore. Despite having plenty of rooms and beds, our kids chose to share a double bed.

My daughter was and still is excited and wanted to see the baby. She wanted the baby to come out now. My husband said this is news we are going to keep to ourselves for a while. Two days later when I go to pick up my daughter at preschool, she right away declares to her little friends that I have a baby in my belly. The kids say it’s not true because my stomach isn’t big enough yet. I tell them the baby has to grow, and my daughter chimes in immediately with the fact the baby is currently only the size of a lemon (good memory!) and it needs to stay in my tummy otherwise it won’t be healthy. I fear this will be a long 6 months for her. Although having the baby due around her birthday, gives her good context that it’s going to be awhile.

I’m still not sleeping well. Especially between the hours of 3 and 5am. I am restless and light sleeping at best. Sometimes I get up a dozen times to go to the bathroom just to see if I’m awake because my bladder is full… often times it’s not. Of course I end up falling into a deep sleep right before my alarm goes off. I vaguely remember insomnia with my other two pregnancies. I remember my friends saying they also experienced it, that pregnancy teaches you early you have to get up with the baby. This insomnia started around 7 or 8 weeks pregnant. It’s a bit better now, not a lot though.

16 WEEKS PREGNANT

I am so frustrated with my body. I went for a run yesterday and a 9:15 minute mile felt really hard to do. I desperately want to run a half marathon on March 23rd.  With the half marathon only 5 weeks away it seems doubtful. Maybe I will defer again. Sob. 

I wanted to be a strong pregnant women this pregnancy. I can’t do my daily regular exercise schedule, and feels pushing to do just every other day. 

I have asthma. Since seeing a naturopath, Dr. Jolene Brighten, I’ve been able to go off my steroid inhaler. Yesterday woke up with a bad chest. My daughter has a bug too. I must have gotten it. Only one week after getting over head cold, I was healthy for maybe 5 days? I did not want to have to start taking my inhaler again. I hate taking medicine period, hate even more taking it while pregnant. Despite it being mostly “safe”. All the doctors I have seen tell me the very small risks far outweigh not breathing properly which in itself is a risk to the baby. Just frustrating. This also means the run I planned tomorrow for for 8 miles won’t happen. Longest distance for training for this half I did 6.5 miles two weeks ago. Loosing another long run 😦

25 WEEKS PREGNANT
I gave up running about 4 weeks ago. Just got too painful. I also missed running a half marathon at the end of March as planned because I came down with a sinus infection that impeded my training. At the time I was very disappointed. Now I have moved on to things I can do. I share a personal training session twice a week. I swim, and ride my bike to commute still. I run… okay let’s be honest, walk quickly up stairs, like the Coit Tower stairs in SF, and there is a local parking garage I’ve done repeats on. I can seem to exercise 5 times a week, and have two days off. This is far less than when not pregnant, but I have to do what my body wants. 

I am oh so grateful for my health this pregnancy. I was sick with my second. I had two different chest infections. One lasting 8 weeks, another lasting 10 weeks. Now I realize it was due to being under medicated for asthma. So grateful for not coughing this pregnancy. so so so grateful. 

Sleep still begets me. Hormones I assume. 

My pelvis is sore. My midwife explained it was likely due to the relaxant hormone. I see a chiropractor who also does ART, which seems to help. 

I have heart palpitations. All normal. However I do notice them and they can feel unsettling at times. 

I still crave sugar. My midwife this week said ‘sugar makes bigger babies’. I clarified what that meant. So if you have the exact same calories in your diet, and on diet number one a lot of them come from sugar, and diet number two you have limited sugar. But exact same calories, the diet with the sugar will make you have a bigger baby. This topic comes up because my 26 week gestational diabetes test is coming up. She also said that babies tend to get larger each pregnancy. First was 6 lbs 13 ounces, Second 7 lbs and 11 ounces…. so they are assuming this child will be larger, and don’t want me to have issues. All searching for the best outcomes. I just need to be more mindful of eating sugar I think, as most of my diet is very healthy and I exercise well. I haven’t had it my diabetes test yet, but of course want to be thoughtful. Today was tough with a ton of Easter chocolate around.  I have gained 15 lbs to date. 

Baby kicks a lot. Though you do have to put your hand on my belly and be patient. My children and husband have all felt babe kick. When babe is active now I am trying to figure out which body part is moving and where babe is at. Hoping “head down” has already happened or will very soon!